依然会。。。

远远的距离 还可以 平静 自然 悄悄地欣赏
近距离 什么时候变得那么迷惘 沉默 遥远
没开始就已结束
没什么记忆就没什么回忆
应当很潇洒的
可是依然会。。。

天上的星星
它在天空看过多少次遗忘 多少心慌 心酸
仰望 俯望 远望 近望
依然会痛。。。
太阳已找到月亮  星星送上满天的祝福

爱，要及时说

It has been a long while since last update, year 2010? haha... I started writing this blog because I find that it is a good way to release my own feeling, the feelings I don't want to express in front of others, the feeling I want to keep deep down in my heart, the feelings I don't want to write on my face and announce to the whole world that this is exactly how I feel. Previously, almost all my blogs were related to relationship problems, oopss (don't really know it is a good thing or bad one). My friend even talked to me and asked me not to write about relationship stuffs anymore, those gf bf stuffs, there are still a lot more out there to pursue.  YES, I totally agree with her, but I can't help because I always think that without love, one isn't complete, knowing how to love other and appreciate love from other are what I am practicing now =).

Hmm, I am kind of shy person who don't know how to speak it loud (i mean speak love out), eg: Mom, Happy birthday! Dad, I love u! Grandpa, how r u doing? I just don't have the gut to speak it out. Though i can sing at the top of my lungs,haha. I always think that action speaks louder than word and i choose to do something for them rather than speak it out. So i make sure that I go back home every month, visit my grandma and grandpa whenever I go back, give them accompany. I will buy them presents, birthday cake, making video for them but somehow I just can't get myself to voice out, such idiot, haha

Not until these past few days, my mom called me and told me that grandpa experienced sudden heart attack and has been hospitalized (ICU). I was shocked because he looked so healthy to me during CNY, kept asking us to eat more, giving us ang pau, chatting with us. The doctor said he might have leave us if he was not send to hospital immediately. He is getting well now, so glad that =). I kind of realize grandpa and grandma are getting older and older, my parents as well. For a second,  I was so afraid that they will leave me, inevitable, this day will come =(. So i start questioning myself, what can I do for them? What I have done for them? Is it something more I can do for them? I phoned my mom, asking her about my grandpa and feel relieved knowing that he is fine now. For my first time, I called my grandma (sounds so unfilial), and she told me that grandpa was not around, he went out to yam cha with his friends. haha, glad that he is recover and can go out to social around =). I think this is the first time I call my grandma from Singapore, talking to her, asking her something. Usually I will only phone my mom and from her I will get know to how are others doing ( I did phone my bros, sometimes, haha).

爱 在适当的时候 确实应该说出口 
这样才能无怨无悔   
因为有你们的爱 才会有今天的我 
人一定要爱自己 才能爱身边的每一个人 家人 爱人 朋友
我元宵节的愿望就是希望身边的人身体健康 心想事成 
希望那一天我会有勇气 在你们的面前
大声地说 我爱你们 再给你们个大大的拥抱 
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO